it' so frustrating!

i don't understand what's happening in this country and also the events these past few weeks. the bombing in glorietta and the never ending political issues! nakakasawa na. but what made me post is the latest regarding the former president estrada. after he was proven guilty then in a month or two he was given a pardon. WTF!! i don't get the point! after the years of trial it will just boil down to the decision of freeing him?? s**t! it really pissed me off!! aaargh!

breaking news!!!

"there was an explosion in glorietta 2 at around 1pm and killed 11 people."

that's the power of technology. the cellphone and the internet can bring you to places where important events happen. thanks to jon and she's bro for the news and to http://www.abscbnnews.com/ and http://www.inq7.com/ for the updated and broader infos regarding the explosion.

i just had a call from a pax asking for a consideration regarding his wife and daughter's tickets that was lost due to the commotion in glorietta (what a coincidence!). but all i could provide for him is that to be able to pursue to their trip they must buy another ticket. our procedure, as well as the other shipping lines is " lost ticket is lost" so i can't give him any considerations even if the life of his family was put in danger. :(

im am quite sad to what happened. that's the only mall nearest to my house and only place that i go to alone and stroll and only place i watch movies. tsk tsk... pano na ko niyan?? it will take time to fix it. tsk tsk... and also too bad to those who were there when it happened. the trauma and everything... tsk tsk... *sigh*

a moment to remember

i still can't get over of the movie a moment to remember. i'ts a suuper beautiful love story! it's a korean film and shown last 2004. i just watched it last saturday at the office with valerie at http://www.crunchyroll.com/. we were so touched by the film. val even cried. if you loved the notebook and 50 first dates im sure you'll like it also.

the actors were really good. the guy was hot also. he's not that gwapo pero pag tumingin, you'll be swept away! hehe... i really recommend everyone to watch this movie. ito ang true love!

falling out...

honestly it is not nice to wake up every morning that there is someone that you are not in good terms with and the fact that it is your friend... it hurts. i kept on saying that it doesn't affect me, well it is quite true because i don't let myself indulge to that feeling but in some way it will change things around me.

after it happened i kept on thinking if i was a bad friend. but as i try to understand everything i can say that i'm not. i was just a concerned friend trying to put things accordingly. but i was misinterpreted. she thought na pinaplastik ko siya. well, if that's what she thinks im fine with it. she has been a close minded for a long time now and i dont think that she will change.

only time and fate can tell if our friendship will be renewed. but for now it's not yet possible. i even deleted her number on my phone and i deleted her on my friendster account to cut any connections with her. but i guess it is impossible since we have the same circle friends. her friends are my friends also. and i won't give them up just for her. it may sound cruel but i won't choose her over them.

hindi masarap magkaroon ng kagalit pero kung ang paglayo ang makabubuti para sa lahat bakit hindi?

the people i miss...

right now i'm in the mood of remembering all the fun and unforgettable memories that i've experienced in my 20 years of existence here on earth... from my childhood memories... and up until my college days... all i could say... i miss the hell of them!! :)

childhood:

• do you know that at early stage of my kindergaten i already had a crush to one of my classmates?? i just forgot his name..
• on my first day of school my teacher called me to recite. i was so shy back then and guess what?? in front of the class i cried though i answered my teacher's question. my teacher was mrs. martos. yes, i still remember.
• my super close friend those days was apple. she's so cute but when i saw her again during highschool i was shocked because boyish na siya...

gradeschool:

• my first ever "serious" crush was hermogenes paraiso when i was in grade 2. we were classmates from grade 1-6. he was gorgeous back then!! haha! but come grade 6 i don't notice him na... hehe! nakakasawa eh...
• blanca imperial, marielle eusebio and johna paula gabriel were my besties during those times. we shared laughters and fights... haha! mga maldita kasi nagsama-sama..
• my close friends also include, irene llantos, mary rose andrada, van maclint patron (my ultimate enemy, but now were friends na and we even go out once in a while if jonah's here in manila...) sila lang ang medyo natatandaan ko eh... hehe

highschool:

• the very first close friend i had on my first year in southeastern college was my seatmates mary grace luna and eve lizeth ogalinola. naging ok naman kami kasi im nice eh.. hehe..
• shellane rodanilla and kenneth perez were by buddies pagdating sa uwian. kame lagi magkakasabay though we're not neighbors.
• jon-jon pabelico the class president naging close din kame sa hindi ko alam kung paano.
• then i became close to mommy chu, genesis, angele, jonah, joy and so on during sophomore...
• my new found friends in 3rd year and 4th were ariane "the transferee" limpin, arlene "mahinhin daw" escamilla, jake "yabang" tenorio, aldrin "mayabang din" pacpaco, and cecile "senswol" celestial... haha! i miss you guys!! hanggang text na lang ba tayo???
• 4th year hs was the best part of my hs life. so many gala, laughters, controversies, and even tears brought by our adviser ian espiritu. tsk... grabe yang teacher na yan... kahit makasalubong mo sa mall deadma lang... tsk.. feeling!! tsk tsk...

xmas '06 at jonah's house

college:

• in college, i've met a lot of people. i transferred from block to block until i found the right one that suited me. naks! mabuhay tayo! in my first block alma and kristine are the two good persons i ve met and sure i'll treasure them forever. mga super nice girls.
• hazel, liezl, karen, gemille and me-ann were also my besties... from group works to reports lagi kami magkakasama. kapit na sa matatag! hehe...
• liezl was my thesismate. from puyatan to ubusan ng pera magkasama kami.
• sheradee malubay, ang isa sa pinakamabait and mabuting tao na nakilala ko. sobrang daldal and prangka. i miss you she!!!
• most of my blockmates naman close kaming lahat. we shared so much laughters and beers! hehe... i remember teta, kreng, joem, jonah, marbhe when it comes to inuman sessions...
• kariza, jhen, ethel... i never thought na magiging close kami ng mga 'to... si kha, pag alphabetical ang seating arrangement lagi siyang nasa likod ko.. and it's a given na na lagi kaming magkadaldalan... pasimple siyempre baka madeads eh...
• the boys: jeff, marshall, randy, marc, benjo, edward and renz were my closest guy friends back then... konti lang naman kasi sila sa block eh... hehe...
• crushes: basta gwapo crush ko! hehe... one of unforgettable moments nung pinakilala ko ni benjo kay roy... awww! with matching shakehands pa!! kilig to the bones! :)

damn all these beautiful girls! :)

hay... nakakamiss talaga silang lahat... pero according to omay, namimiss mo lang ang isang tao pag siya ay kinalimutan mo... norman, ikaw ba yan?? hehe... thesismate ko yun na pasaway! tsk tsk...

i loooove pilipinas!!!

kahapon on the way na pauwi sa bahay from work sumakay ako ng lrt. on a saturday afternoon nagulat ako kasi sobrang dami ng tao sa tren. siguro 20 minutes akong naghintay para lang makasakay sa makakahinga naman ako. sa 3rd train sumakay na ko kahit na masikip pa din kasi gusto ko na talagang makauwi. grabe, nasa may pintuan na ako sa sobrang sikip. sa sobrang sikip magkakadikit na talaga kami ng sobra. sabi ko na nga lang sa isip ko "ang saya talaga sa pilipinas! lahat ng tao close". literally. bakit ko ito kinikwento?? kasi sa pangyayaring yun naisip ko na bakit nga ba masarap tumira dito sa Pilipinas at maging Pinoy??

maraming sumagi sa isip ko pero kung ililista mo parang hindi ko siya malagay lahat. despite sa dami ng mga pinoy na gustong pumunta sa ibang bansa ( isa na ako dun) at the end of the day mas pinipili pa din nila na umuwi sa 'Pinas para dito na tumanda.

isang factor kung bakit umaalis ang mga pilipino ay dahil sa hirap ng buhay dito. sinusubukan nila ang swerte sa lupang banyaga para mabigyan ng maginhawang buhay ang kanilang pamilya. nagtiis at nagpapakihirap sa isang lugar na bago sa kanila at milya ang layo sa kanilang pinanggalingan at mga mahal sa buhay. kung iisipin nating lahat, kung sana lang may mas magandang oportunidad sa kanilang sariling bayan hindi na nila kailangan na umalis ng bansa para doon magtrabaho. kung sana lang naging kasing yaman ng bansa natin ang amerika at mga bansang nasa europa wala ng ofws. sana lang...

nakaka-frustrate ang buhay dito sa 'Pinas pero marami din naman dahilan para mag-celebrate. mas pipiliin ko pa din na dito tumira habang-buhay. ang dahilan ko lang naman kung bakit ko gustong pumunta sa ibang bansa para rin kumita ng mas malaki. katulad ng dahilan ng iba.

pero since bata pa ako, mag-eenjoy muna ako sa yugto ng buhay kong ito. katulad ninyo, LET'S CELEBRATE!

p.s panalo si pacquiao kay barrera! galing!
p.p.s game 2: dlsu vs. ue (Go Ateneo! OBF!) :)

i love bball...players! :)

thanks to the forumers at atenista.net for making me feel good after the heartbreaking loss last sunday. i was really relieved.

anyways, what kept me busy these past 2 days? well, i just attended a birthday last tuesday in sampaloc, manila (happy bday she!). it was really an effort 'cause i live in pasay! we met up in times plaza at 6pm and it was raining. on the way the lrt was jampacked and there were no jeepneys! so we (mayeth, irish, valerie and me) to ride a taxi. it was really traffic. of course what would i expect? we passed quiapo and espana. it was fun and i was bloated though we just stayed there a couple of hours 'cause they still have work the next day.

hay.. im beginning to get crazy again... kaya nga ayoko ng ma-involve sa mga gwapong players na yan eh...hehe.. waaah!!! pls God help me to stop this craziness!!! every single minute i think about chris.. anu ba naman yan..!! i went through this stuff na before. from larry, wesley, and rich! even jc! haha! ganyan ako ka-praning! iba kasi ako magmahal.. sagad! haha!

pero this time iba na ata talaga itong nararamdaman ko. true love! haha! panu ba naman, since his rookie year crush ko na siya.. and sa lahat ng infos na nalaman ko i was sooo amazed. class valedictorian ng hs, star player, cutie-pie, mayaman and mukha naman nice.. what more can you get diba??? almost perfect! close to being one talaga! swerte ng gf niya.. ok, enough of this! im gonna give my love life a helping hand na. i have to have a boyfriend before this year ends para matigil na ang kahibangan ko. kasi pag hindi pa, baka mabaliw na ko kaka-imagine kay chris.. hehe..

magkikita rin tayo chris one of this days.. baka nga maging partners pa tayo sa business eh.. hehe.. nothing is impossible cause God works..! :)

heartbreaking...

Setember 30 (Sunday)
1 pm
i got out from the office. ride the lrt to meet up sheng in taft. we rode mrt and arrived at araneta at 2pm. on the way to gateway i told sheng that i dont want to see the word "sold out" which came to be realistic when i saw it on the screen in ticketnet! so there, we were one of many people who's ticketless. scalpers were all over the place but we were hesitant to approach them. we dont know how to start and we're shy. but suddenly, there was an angel that fall in front of us! she asked me if i do already have ticket. i said none yet. i though she just wanted to know 'cause she too has none. but as fate would have it, she sold her gen ad tickets to us! yahoo! we were so lucky because of all people we got it for only P50! haha! it was cheap because the price of gen ad for a sold out game is P100 from scalpers and it can go higher if there will be a bid. that was a lucky start, for all we know it was... :(

3:30pm
we were on top of araneta coliseum with sea of blue people. we were not seated because the place was jampacked. so again, we were standing all through out the game. i think anyone could feel the intensity and heat of the game. both schools wanted to win but there'll be only be one winner and that was came to be the archers. how did it happen? their shots was perfect. they defense to chris and ford were really stiff and they out-rebounded the eagles. the phantom calls also against nonoy really hurt the team. it was a painful loss. i was really hurt. and much more to me are the players. during the alma matter song, i could see how they were so hurt to the important game they badly needed to win to head on to the finals. eric even cried. chris was really down. while the greens were so happy. but that' it. after the 5 rounds of battle the archers will go back to taft rejoicing. while the eagles will have to go to katipunan scarred.

after the game
the blue eagles head on to Gesu to have a mass. as i've noticed chris was badly hurt.

upon waking up at 4:15 in the morning today the first thing that came to my mind was the loss. grabe, di ko na kayo toh. im soooo sad. huhuhu. lahat ng pangayayari nagfflashback sakin. upon arriving at the office i checked the forums in atenista.net. there was this guy who were so bitter about what happened. he's kind of blaming chris and the eagles. for me it's unfair because chris did his best to win it though medyo kinapos kahapon. he was tagged as a "cardiac kid" and "the big game" for nothing. he was the one who saved ateneo for losses over al lasalle for the 3 wins they had over them and yet he's the one to blame? i just don't get the point. chris has still 1 year eligibility but no one knows if he would still play next season. according to the forums also, he was even convinced by ateneo to play for this season. chris, management engineering grad and is about to finish (if not already finished) his double major in applied mathematics of finance. if he decides to suit up again next year (Chris please do!), he'll probably have an economics honors degree under his belt too. (wow! dreamboy talaga!) chris made his own name. he is an ateneo star. they even sell shirts that is about hi. the one thay i really like is TIUperwoman with a T logo just like superman. galing!

for every game super walang patid ang asaran sa araneta. ateneo's side: "wrong spelling" (haha! dlsu should blame it on their pep squad); "suspended" (well, totoo naman eh); and the one that i think really hit la salle is the statement shirt that in front reads "I passed the ACET" at the back "I'm sure YOU didnt" (Boom!) that is why they made a huge tarpaulin that has " #374(not sure) #488 'NUF SAID" (that's the world rankings of both schools. dlsu's side: "nu" (and so?); "bawal TIUmamba" (3 wins tsamba si tiu? sus!) hay, college basketball.. ansakit sa ulo. hehe

GO ATENEO! ONE BIG FIGHT! 'til next season!