goodbyes...

today is the day that i'll be leaving aboitiz for re. it's so sad. i'm sad. i thought it would be just easy but i was wrong. saying goodbye to the people you worked with 5 days a week is just heartbreaking.

attack of loneliness...

i guess it's time for me to open up my feelings and admit all the things that's happening in my life that i keep on avoiding. eversince it's my attitude that if have i have problems i really don't entertain it and just deny that it exists. because i don't want problems to affect me. i want everything to be ok even if it's not. maybe that's the problem with me. a BIG problem of me. so from now on i'll begin to talk about my feelings to others and face problems for me to grow and be strong.

hay... im not feeling well. physically im very much ok and i hope healthy but emotionally, deep inside of me i'm dying of loneliness and anxiety. all i could do is to sigh. it seems that all my friends are very much happy and here i am stuck in monotony. nothing new is happening for the past 10 months. home-work-home 5 days a week. and once in a while go out with friends to watch movie and i tell you, it's very seldom. kumbaga, "madalang pa sa patak ng ulan". now i can bravely admit that my life is boring. actually, i'm really desperate of finding ways on how to make my life colorful and exciting so please help me God.

happy reunion!

my very first weekend off from work was finally given to me and i spend it with a BANG!

saturday, i met up with my college friends. though we're not complete and it turned out to be cozy because there's just 7 of us who showed up it turned out to be fun na din. marc and she are very cute together. i never thought they would end up like that. it just started as joke but they made it for real. hehe. kreng and teta never changed. the same old funny girls who give spice to every conversation. benjo, didn't came and i was really disappointed. from the time marcial texted me that benjo is in manila and would make it, i was really excited to see him. the last time i saw him was on graduation day and that's 9 months ago! imagine that?

sunday is sheng's birthday so we went to their house. the always present me and ariane will not miss it for the world! hehe! the other hs friends who came were not-not, willy, genesis, marian, wong and joy. yes, sarah joy diez came! haha! after that we went to moa and watched a movie. since heartbreak kid will start at 7:30 that's what we watched at willy's expense. hehe... *thanks you so much willy! ngayon lang naman eh...*

with the filbar's model cecille!

nahihiya ako mag-pic eh! haha!

"we're the kitty girls" Ü

Surprises!

Start the year right! buti na lang last january 1 kahit uber puyat eh on time pa din ako sa work. though para kong nakalutang all day. anyways, that's life again. kesa naman walang work diba? let's celebrate life! woohoo!

january 2, i received a surprise phone call from my tita. all along we thought na hindi siya uwi from paris pero dumating sila ng husband niya last january 1. so ayus! the next day we went to their house and i received my phone! galing! im soo happy kahit na nahihirapan ako gamitin... it's a samsung e900 model.

Fasyon!

Bakit naman bigla akong nag-segway? hehe! why not!?! =) gusto ko lang ishare ang taong nagiinfluence sakin... Heidi Klum! She's a goddess! from the time na napanood ko siya sa project runway, super like ko na agad siya! and swerte talaga ni Seal sa kanya grabe! She and Seal already have 3 children. Helene the eldest who's real father is Flavio Briatore a Formula-1 mogul. But according to Heidi, Flavio Briatore is not involved in Helene's life, and she has stated emphatically that "Seal is Helene's father." Second is Henry Günther Ademola Dashtu Samuel and Johan Riley Fyodor Taiwo Samuel. infairness to them ayaw nila ng pangalan noh? hehe... Heidi is not just a model but also an actress, host, tv producer, fashion designer and business woman. what a Superwoman!

Aren't she so hot even pregnant?

salamat 2007!

this year was a blast! it came so fast. many things happened to me this year that i will never forget. good and bad all came that changed and helped me to grow up and learn from those things. let us look back to the year that was.

the year started when i was still a college student. i would say that it was really fantastic! i've gained so many friends and became close to people whom i never thought that id be joining in times of joyful moments. i miss my college friends so much. i miss my blockmates!

one of the highlights in the last days of being a student was when benjo introduced me to roy! haha! kinikilig pa din ako pag-naaalala ko. it was during our graduation practice when he called roy and ayun na! hihi... with matching shakehands pa. *kilig* and the story of me and roy ended there. haha! what a beautiful story noh? =)

then there came my graduation day. i was so happy of course but a bit afraid that i might not land a job rightaway. but on that very day, while i was sitting and listening to the ceremony, i got a call from staff that i'm off for training in aboitiz tomorrow. hindi ako ganun ka-happy kasi wala akong pera. hehe! and ibig sabihin lang din nun eh, wala akong pahinga. as in right after grad work agad. anyways, life's like that talaga. i just have to enjoy what i have.

during my stay here in the office, ive gained friends. true friends that is. i learned that not all people who are nice to you can be considered as real people. and i also told myself not to trust people so easy because they might stab me on my back. working in aboitiz is fun and most of the time hard. you are drained not physically but emotionally. you should be able to master the art of shifting emotions. it's not a joke. it's really tiring and nakakasawa. actually, my contract will last on january 31. sir fred told me to pass my resume in hr since my contract in the agency will already end. but im still thinking whether i should try it or not. God, pls help me with that.

kung may saya, meron din lungkot. isa na dun ang paglipat namin from makati to pasay na hanggang ngayon hindi ko at namin pa rin matanggap. sana by next year, magkaron ng blessings para naman makalipat ulet kami. isa pa sa heartaches ng 2007 ay ang pag-aaway namin ni jonah. not once, but twice! ok na kami ngayon pero hindi na rin yun maibabalik kagaya ng dati. ganun talaga.

kung maraming changes ang nangyari sa taong ito, ok man o hindi, welcome pa din. maraming salamat 2007! mmmmwah!

2008, hope na maging ok ang ibibigay mo sa aming lahat! sana sana...

happy birthday to me...!

yehey! it's time! honestly, i think that this is the best birthday i had because i received so many gifts. hehe. im a material girl talaga eh.. can't do anything about that... i think i already received the gift i asked God, the surprise! and hopefully there would be more! haha!

if you have gifts to me, don't hesitate to send it at home... i'll just be home waiting for those... hehe!

Happy Holidays! mwah! God Bless!

people come and go... so fast...

whew... it's just weird that i feel this way... im really pathetic! i can't understand myself why i'm like this. we had conversation of course. it's just plain conversation and a laugh out of that not so long talks. but still im sad that he left. i knew he won't stay that long but i didn't expect that it would be this early! my god! im going to get crazy just thinking about it! huhuhu... why is this happening??? all along i was really expecting that we could be a close friend. i felt it from the very first time i talked to him but he just vanished. it really hurts! ouch talaga! nakakapanghinayang! huhuhu... so now, i'm a desperate girl searching him in friendster and hope to add him and get his number. i don't know what's on my head that i have the guts to do that. deym!